Mood swings, am I right?

Turns out I can still feel blue

The devil really is in the details and perimenopause is proving that true in all kinds of unexpected ways. You’d think that as you start getting used to your body in this new era, those old mood swings from “that time of the month“ would be a thing of the past. Or maybe they’d lighten up a bit. But no, they’re still here, reminding you they’ve got tenure.

I like to think of myself as a good person, a kind soul, and a friend you’d want by your side. However, these days, (ehm more like years) I’m juggling a million things: being a mom, untangling the Telenovela-worthy plot twist of my life after losing my husband, adjusting to Italy, still learning the language, and writing my blog. So, naturally, people wonder, “how is she even coherent?“. With a little help from my bio identical hormones, I finally found some beautiful harmony and balance, a goal since childhood! And for that, I am grateful. But, here’s the kicker, every month, even though it’s anyone’s guess whether I’ll actually get my period, my emotions are still in flux like it’s right around the corner. Why is this a thing? With all the information out there why did no one mention this emotional encore? I mean, I might be feeling a little extra “feels-y“ as I write this, but it’s not that I’m mad at anyone. I just noticed there’s 24-36 hour funk that seems to hit every month. The upside? It’s way shorter than the weeklong saga I had in my youth, so I’ll happily raise a glass to that!